April 13, 2019

Dear Babies,

I sometimes have to pinch myself that by the end of this year, I’ll have two babies to love and adore. Life is so good, dear sweet little ones. We are blessed beyond measure. We might not have a lot in way of physical things (like a house, for instance) but we are so happy. And it’s all because of you two. I can’t imagine life without either of you. You make life fun and interesting. You make my life whole and complete. I am so happy I get to be your mama.

To my oldest:

You are growing up way too fast. Please, slow down just a little bit. At 21 months, you can say way more than 50 words (I’m pretty sure you can say about 150 words, but I’ve never counted, so I can’t be sure). You know your colors really well. I thought for a while you just memorized what color each item was…but pretty soon you started pointing out all the colors around you and you were always right. I’m so impressed. You can also count to three, when you want to. Sometimes you start with two instead of one, but that’s ok. You’ll get it. You also know some of the alphabet, which I had no idea until I asked you one day if you knew what ‘A’ was, and you did. Reading books is the best thing I’ve ever done for you!

Besides being the smartest 21 month old I know, you are also really polite. You know when it’s appropriate to say ‘thank you’ and ‘please’. You are also learning ‘sorry’. But you definitely have ‘thank you’ down. You say it even when I’m not expecting you to. I just think you’re so adorable! And smart! And I’m so proud of you for all of your accomplishes. You really just make this mama smile.

You’re still breastfeeding. I love the connection breastfeeding brings us. I’m so happy we’ve been keeping it up. However, I am in the process of slowly weaning you. Last night, for example, you only nursed twice and for about 10 seconds each time. I was amazed and so happy. You slept so long last night. During the day you only nurse one time, usually around nap time. You’ve been eating more food, which I think definitely helps. I’m hoping you will be weaned by the time your sibling gets here. I don’t want to cut you off cold turkey because that’s just no my parenting style. I love our breastfeeding journey and I will be sad when I no longer get to breastfeed you. But I know you are ready to wean.

You love going to the park and sliding down the slide. It’s your favorite! When we first started going to the park, you would yell ‘no!’ at anyone who tried to slide down with you. You’ve gotten a lot better and now only look at them funny, haha! You also really love taking walks. And what I mean by that is that you actually walk around, no stroller. It’s cute and wears you out so I let you. And plus I need the exercise myself! You certainly keep me busy, little one. I love it so much ,though!

Keep growing, keep getting smarter, keep being your adorable self.

To my youngest:

Life got so much sweeter when we found out about you. I had a feeling pretty much right after I conceived that I was pregnant with you. I didn’t tell your daddy, though. I didn’t want to get his hopes up as well. Four weeks later I took a test and sure enough, there was the positive sign. When I told your daddy later that day, he was shocked but so happy! It took so long to get pregnant with your brother, we were expecting the exact same thing with you. But that wasn’t the case. And we are so so blessed.

We got to see you on the ultrasound when you were just 8 weeks (in my belly). You looked like such a cute little bean! And we saw your heart beat and you move. At our last appointment, we heard your heart beat again. I love that sound. Our next appointment we get to see you on the ultrasound again and fine out what you are. I’m so excited, little bean! I can’t believe I’m already that far in my pregnancy with you! This pregnancy is flying by. I feel like you’ll be here before I know it. And I’m happy about that. I can’t wait to give you hugs and kisses. I can’t wait to breastfeed you! I can’t wait for you to meet your older brother (you’ll love him, I promise). I can’t wait to pick out a name for you! I can’t wait till your daddy gets to hold you for the first time. You are already so loved, my little bean. Life is just so good.

I love you both so much.

Love, Mama